♥Sober and Depressed
Friday, February 22, 2008
I am officially SOBER and DEPRESSED right now.
Forgive me, for being so out of character but I am least entitled to be emo once in a while. I'll be back to being bratty once I'm over my self-pity-depressed mode which would last... hhmm, I dunno when actually.
Anyway, back to the topic at hand.
WHY? Why am I sober and depressed right now? Let me answer that with another question.
How would YOU feel if your friends know something and you DON'T? That they are talking about something behind your back? And that something or should I say someone is YOU?
Okay, so I haven't yet confirmed that it is me they are talking about but I have this STRONG feeling deep within my gut and most of the time, that kind of instinct has never been proven wrong. NEVER.
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I felt betrayed, as if I was slapped in the face HARD.
Why couldn't they just CONFRONT me? Tell me what's bothering them instead of talking in hushed voices while I'm around. That would make it even MORE obvious.
I mean, DUH. How come I'm NOT included in the conversation? Am I NOT your friend?
It's not that I'm afraid of confrontations (If I do ever decide to confront them), I'm afraid of what would be the outcome. With me sometimes being crude and bitchy, I could accidentally say something harsh and hurtful. And I wouldn't want that to be a trigger in ending our friendship.
SIGH.
Just thinking about it makes me feel even MORE depressed.
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chocolates and ice cream, please...
Labels: rants
posted at 9:42 PM
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